Technology
62: Time to say goodbye
In this heartfelt episode, Sarah and Lowe Beeston announce the difficult decision to pause their podcast, reflecting on the journey they've shared with their listeners. They discuss the personal ...
62: Time to say goodbye
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So we have a little bit of news and it's not the happiest of news.
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Not this episode.
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Not today.
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It's Fiammit.
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Hi.
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Hey.
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It's Sarah and Lowe Beeston.
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Your fairly odd sisters.
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Woo!
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Yeah!
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No.
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Oh, please don't be weird again.
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Um, okay.
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So we've been away for a little while and a lot of you have noticed and have been commenting
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on our things.
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Like, where is the podcast?
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When's the next podcast?
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So we have a little bit of news and it's not the happiest of news if you are a fairly
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odd sister of us.
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Listeners.
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Um, we decided after a lot of thought and a lot of talking back and forth and trying
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to figure it out.
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We decided that we are going to not be continuing the podcast at this time.
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There's a lot of factors that go into it.
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So like we've been talking on the podcast if you've listened, you've known that like
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Tanner and I are kind of wanting to try out a different state possibly to live in.
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And we're not sure really where we're going to end up and obviously that means that
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we would be not by Derek and Sarah, which is really, really sad.
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But that just made it really hard for making decisions for the podcast because we were
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like that kind of felt up in the air and then it kind of just felt like this thing that
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we couldn't really make decisions on because it just made everything feel like, oh, like
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we can't make decisions because we have the podcast and we, you know, like it was just
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hard.
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So we decided to pause it slash stop at this time because it just made it so it takes
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the pressure off of Tanner and I and we can kind of make that decision whatever feels
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best for us.
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And then obviously Derek and Sarah can make their decision whatever feels best for them.
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So that's why that's it inevitably why we are we haven't been recording and why it
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has been like kind of silent on our podcast pages and everything.
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And so like it's been really hard though because we both love this platform and we've
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loved doing this podcast.
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It's been over a year that we've been doing it like a year and a half now.
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And it has been super, super fun.
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It is a lot of work.
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It's a lot of time.
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But it was really rewarding and getting to meet everyone that listened to the podcast
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and person was really cool and it makes me really sad because even like still we'll
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get people.
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Everyone that comes up is like I love your podcast.
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Yeah.
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Oh, you're about to like find out that we're not going to be continuing right now.
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But yeah, so it is like very sad for us as well.
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Yeah, like Lo said, it was just we yeah, we weren't able to like make a concrete decision
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on like what to do with it.
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But this started back like we haven't made an episode since April or when we took our
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break.
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No, we did two.
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Yeah, we did two when we came home from Hawaii.
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Yeah.
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So that was me right.
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Oh, yeah, yeah.
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Yeah.
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And it was like at that point, I mean, there's just like a lot of life decisions that are
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happening, which obviously we're so excited for low and tanner whatever they want to do.
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And it is so sad that like we can't continue the podcast.
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But at first, like you wanted to maybe give birth in Hawaii.
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So that was like that was kind of another reason because I'm sure people are like, well,
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why didn't you at least continue filming and like throughout that time, we just want
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to be like really transparent.
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Like, low is like kind of thinking like when they went out there, like, well, maybe I'm
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going to give birth out here.
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And so that was like kind of when we started had like we had to have like the conversations
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of like, okay, well, if you're out here for the birth, like, then I'm going to be in
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Utah and like, you know, so we had to like work through that.
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And then like obviously decisions change and everything.
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And now they're like, okay, well, we might try out a different state in the spring time.
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So that's kind of like where they're at now.
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So it was kind of like, okay, well, we yeah, just at this time, it's not going to be happening,
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but I'm so sad.
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And it's really sad.
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I'm so sad.
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This has been like one of my favorite things.
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And like as far as social media goes, it's like probably top for me, like the platform
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and just like she said, all the fans, you guys are like so die hard with it.
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And we just love it.
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And like, yeah, people continue to like support us.
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And it's just great.
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And yeah, sad.
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Sad.
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I like, I never want to say that we're never coming back because it just like feels too
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sad to say that.
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Yeah.
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Do you know what I mean?
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Like it just hurts.
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But like never say never, you know, but we yeah, for the foreseeable future, it is going
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to be not happening.
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And it's like heartbreaking because we put in so much time, so much work into this.
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And yeah, but we also like want like obviously our families and like our life come first.
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So like Derek and I are totally fine.
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And that like that's what low and tanner are figuring out right now.
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And like they like want to like be able to make that decision and like they have every
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right to it.
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And it's so it's so it's great.
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It's great.
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We're excited.
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Obviously, we don't want them to leave us.
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A lot of big life decisions.
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And it's okay.
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So yeah.
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It's hard to because like, yeah, it feels like when we if we didn't do this pause, like
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that decision of us being able to go there, try it out, felt too hard to make.
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Like because it just felt too heavy to be like, well, we need to do that.
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I don't know.
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I just, it's like better that we pause.
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It's that we are in stop now so that we don't have to feel like we can't, you know what
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I mean?
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Totally.
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And or that you can't if you want to pick up and go to Texas or something.
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You know what I mean?
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Like it.
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It's just one of those things.
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But yeah, so that's the update and I'm really sorry.
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I know that for the weekly listeners, that's going to be not fun news to hear.
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And I'm so sorry.
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But we are going to be continuing on our other platform so you can still find us there.
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Sadly, there won't be the podcast.
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But maybe that'll lead to us doing more sit down videos on YouTube and you can catch
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up with us there.
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But yeah.
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So I guess for this last episode, we wanted to just kind of like obviously fill you in
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on what's been going on because that's been the biggest question.
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And then also just to kind of update you on what's been going on and kind of our final
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like goodbye.
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And like we don't want to leave you guys hanging.
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So just make sure that if you want to stay up to date on Sarah and I and our families,
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just follow us.
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Make sure you follow us on Instagram or YouTube or TikTok.
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We're all on all of those platforms.
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So stick around with us.
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We love you guys.
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And it's like so sad because we feel the love and support for this podcast.
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And when we get to meet you guys in person.
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So just know that it was it wasn't an easy decision.
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Like we kept going because we knew how much like fun we had making these and also how
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much fun you guys had listening.
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So anyway, maybe like a little life update to live in the end of the day and then we can
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close out and say goodbye.
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But yeah.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Our life update is that we're very pregnant and shocking.
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Yeah.
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I think this, it'll definitely feel like a jump for you guys.
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But like the last time we filmed, we were not nearly this pregnant.
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So it will feel like a jump.
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I'm like 31 weeks and low is like 29.
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So we are getting towards the end.
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We're in third trimester and have like nine more weeks left, which is crazy.
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And we just have a lot of summer stuff going on.
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So I feel like our babies are going to be here before we know it, which is crazy.
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Yeah.
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So yeah.
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It's insane.
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It's shocking.
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It will truly flew by.
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Like when I think about when we first took the test, that feels like a million years ago.
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But at the same time, I can't believe we're in our third trimester.
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I know how fast this trimester is going to go by because we have like the rest of summer
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and all of our, it feels like summer just filled up with plans and it's just going to
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go, go, go.
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And then getting the house ready and I'm like, oh my gosh, like September is when we're
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going to have babies.
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Yeah.
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That's crazy.
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So so crazy.
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Like Sarah said, we were kind of teetering on the thought of giving birth in Hawaii.
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We ultimately decided to stay here for one more school year for Ozzy and Stella.
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But Ozzy's going to be in elementary school.
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So we wanted her to be kind of solid in a school for the year since she will be going
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into first grade.
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I didn't want to like have to take her out halfway through.
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So if we went to Hawaii or like vice versa and so we did ultimately decide to stay here
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to give birth, which is really exciting because that means I can be here for when Sarah gives
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birth.
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And she can be around when I give birth as well, which makes me really happy.
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Maybe we'll end up in the hospital same day.
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We could.
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That's the dream.
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She goes early and I don't go early.
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So that could be, that could be a thing.
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Yeah.
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For sure.
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That would be super funny and super crazy.
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But yeah, so that's the update with where we're giving birth.
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And so yeah, we're trying to like get the house ready, get like a room ready.
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We don't have a room on our main level where we have our master bedroom.
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And so trying to figure out where the nursery in quotes would be, but she will be in our
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room for the first like six months at least.
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So we're not too worried about that yet.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Or are you going to, yeah, you're going to be in our room for at least, yeah, first six,
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seven months and then, then figure out a room upstairs.
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And we just have all the kids upstairs, which I kind of like, that's how I grew up.
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So it feels right to have all the kids just like to get them to get upstairs.
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Yeah, we're getting a room ready for her.
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We actually have to like, right now currently we have like a loft upstairs.
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We have sunny and jacks rooms and then like a loft that's like where the kids have been
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playing.
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We have all their toys up there.
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But we're in the next like month converting that into a bedroom, which is fun.
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We're putting a door on it.
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So that will be babies new little nursery room.
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So we're hoping to get that ready before she comes, even though she'll be in our room
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for like six to seven months.
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And then she can move into her little room up there with Jack and Sunny when she's ready.
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I know I feel like nervous about because moving them upstairs for some reason because
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they both are kids.
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Obviously we're born in Hawaii and we lived in a 500 square foot house, you know.
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And so putting them in their own room.
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They were one foot away from my door, not getting in.
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And so like it feels like so crazy.
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So I was like, do I change?
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Like this is our, we're recording the podcast in our office right now.
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And I'm like, do we convert the office into like a nursery room?
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And like, I think like this.
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Also, but it's like baby monitors now.
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It's totally fine.
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We both hear the baby cry from our room.
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Yeah.
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Like, there's no way, like so they're close enough that it's like we could hear them from
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our room.
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And they're going to be fine.
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It's just like, also think about when they wake up, do I want to go up and do the
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stairs?
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Or do I want to just like hop over whatever.
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So we might be scared as hard.
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We've still been waking up with our kids and the stairs is hard in the night.
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Stays is hard.
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I don't, it's the last thing you want to do in the night.
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But if you think about it, your kids sleep good.
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So like you won't be doing stairs probably.
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Yeah.
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Six or seven months.
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You just never know.
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You just never know.
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Usually years are good by like couple of months in.
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So I think I think you're going to be fine.
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I think you're good.
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I think you're okay.
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Yeah.
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I think you're fine.
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We'll see.
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But anyway, yeah, it was actually debating like, do we change the office to like a grocery
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or what do we do?
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So we'll see.
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It's really light in here though.
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That's the.
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Yeah.
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You have to get blackouts.
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We have to get some blackouts and curtains.
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Some curtains.
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I think you're a cute little baby room.
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But if we like made it not black, like we did paint it like.
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Where would you move your office?
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We just want it having office.
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I built bedroom upstairs.
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Just because I love my office so much.
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Well, this is sad to not have an office.
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But like maybe it's because the podcast stuff is in here.
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Yeah.
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But I don't come in here to work.
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I like working my little I work in my room with my little chair.
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Yeah, you like your chair.
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So you don't really if you're not a chair.
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I don't use it.
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But maybe it's because maybe when the stuff is cleared out.
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My stuff is gone.
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Just having.
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Just having office.
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Then maybe I'll use the office.
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Who knows?
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We'll fill it out.
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We'll fill it out.
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Honestly, you can just move her bass in it.
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It's like it's so funny when you have your first gig.
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Because you're like, they need this fall on.
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They decorated like nursery and I'm like, they don't even know.
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Yeah.
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They don't even see it until like three months.
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It's more for us.
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It's more cute for us.
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But it's just funny.
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Yeah, they probably won't know for at least a year.
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That's true.
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You can just have her little diaper caddy in her bass in it
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in here and she wouldn't know any better.
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It'd be great.
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It's very, very true.
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Well, any other updates.
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Oh, like third trimester stuff is definitely hit.
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The second trimester was like pretty blissful.
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And I just kept being like, this is just the best time
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in pregnancy.
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And then third trimester hit and I was like, yeah, it feels
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like third trimester.
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I think it's the sciatica just turned on hard for me.
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And then the acid reflex really came on strong.
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So if this baby doesn't have a bunch of fricking hair.
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Then I'm going to be pissed.
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I'm going to help you.
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It'll be all for nothing.
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No, just enough.
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But yeah, I take, I have a little thumbs by my bed.
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Actually, what are those called that I have?
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Wonderbelly.
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Yeah, Wonderbelly.
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So they're actually really good.
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Yeah.
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The better I'll turn those for thumbs.
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Have those on the side of the bed.
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I pop one in every once in a while.
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You know, but live in the dream.
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Live in the dream.
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Keep barely walk.
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Yeah, everything hurts.
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That's just.
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We didn't work out though this week.
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So we've got going to the gym or.
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We've been going to the gym.
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We went to the last four months.
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Literally.
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We, our husbands took the kids on a road trip to Shaver Lake
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this week.
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If you have seen us on other platforms talk about this,
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it's what they do every year.
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It's the family reunion.
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But I just couldn't, we both were like, we can't do the drive.
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I can barely say, oh, that's one of my symptoms.
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This is my rib.
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I call it my mick rib.
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Yeah.
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Just hurt so freaking bad.
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Yeah.
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When I sit down for longer than 20 minutes,
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it just starts to freaking hurt.
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And so I was like, I can't do the drive, but Tanner didn't want
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to miss it.
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He was like, I got to go.
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So he road trip with both the girls.
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And this is the first time I've ever been at my house
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without either of the kids and husband.
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So I feel like a bachelor at.
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Yeah.
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It's like a weird feeling.
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It's so bizarre.
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I freaking miss them, but it's also felt like a little vacation
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for me, even though I'm at my house.
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So like, whoa, like I can do whatever I want.
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I'm a little lazy.
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I'm a little breaky.
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A little break, it's kind of nice to get the relaxation in.
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We got some pedicures.
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Yes, we did.
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We did.
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We got the same color.
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We got the same color.
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Little blue.
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We'll have blue.
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Little blue nail.
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It is weird to have both the boys gone.
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But they're coming back tonight.
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So it'll be great.
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I'm excited to see the kids.
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Yes, we do.
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It's Tanner's birthday today.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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These are the updates.
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These are the updates.
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These are the updates.
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We went to New York for Derek's birthday.
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Yeah, we celebrated his birthday early
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because he, it's his 30th.
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And we always do something big for the 30th,
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but his actual birthday is in September.
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And that's like the, you know,
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we'll be in, we'll be in labor in labor and in newborn lands.
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So we didn't think that would be like the most fun 30th
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birthday.
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So we just celebrated it early.
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All he wanted to do was go to New York.
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So we did that.
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It was so fun.
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We ate a lot of good food.
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We went to good shows and it was epic.
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So in another life, Derek lives in New York
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and he works on Wall Street.
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There's alter ego.
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He likes to leave the city and I am like,
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I love the city for three days.
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And then I'm like, I love this thing.
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I love this thing.
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Yeah, it's so fun.
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But I don't think I could ever live in the city.
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I feel like I could do it if I was like,
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just with my husband and we were really young
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and it was like, just, I knew it was like a short period
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of my life.
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I think I could enjoy it.
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But like, even then though, I think about that.
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And I'm like, I don't think I could do it for that long.
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Really?
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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It is like, it takes a certain person to love it.
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But I, and people do love it.
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That's the thing is I love that people love it
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because there can't be everyone can't love the same thing.
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We can't love the country or else everyone
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will be doing the same things.
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Everyone needs to have the same preferences.
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We need to be there.
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We need to be there.
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We need to all the people.
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We need to mountain people.
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We need all the people.
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So random.
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We need all the people in the world.
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We need the people.
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Oh, man.
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Yeah, those are the updates.
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We wanted to keep it kind of short and sweet for our last episode
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just to, because you guys know what's happening now.
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And so again, thank you so freaking much
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for all the support that you've given this podcast the last year
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and a half.
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It has been truly overwhelming.
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And we have felt the love.
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And it just means the world that you guys
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were here every week listening, supporting,
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leaving sweet comments, sending messages,
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meeting you in person.
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It was amazing.
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Yeah.
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Well, it feels like an end of an era and it's really, really sad.
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Yeah.
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But yeah, that's just like Lo said, we are so grateful.
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And it's been such a fun ride.
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I feel like I could look back on our first episode
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and be like, whoa, we were so nervous.
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Like I feel like we really, it gave us a sense of confidence
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over time to just sit and talk.
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I feel like that had a lot to do with you guys
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of how you responded so well to it.
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Hyping us up.
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Hyping us up.
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And you didn't care that we said like a bunch of times.
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And all the things that we were worried about
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in the beginning.
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So we just, yeah, we really appreciate you guys.
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We love it.
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Might have to cut it because I get tears
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and I'm not going to do it.
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So.
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Not this episode.
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We're not doing tears today.
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Not today.
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So we should close this out.
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Oh, that's serious.
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We love you guys and here I go.
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No.
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No.
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Close it.
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Don't make me cry.
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Close it.
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Don't make me cry.
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I said close it.
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I said close it.
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Yeah, we just really appreciate you guys.
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Damn it.
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Damn it.
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Damn.
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I was like strong.
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I know that's why I was telling you to close it
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before it got to this point.
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I was thinking.
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Is it true?
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I'm on the closets.
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Oh my gosh.
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We love you guys.
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No.
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We won't see you next time.
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We'll see you other places.
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Other places.
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And maybe one day we'll see you again.
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Okay.
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We love you.
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And thank you for always being here.
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Bye.
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Bye.
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Bye.
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Sad.
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So sad.