Health
Self care
In this episode, the host reflects on their journey of self-care and personal growth after distancing themselves from toxic friendships. They share their experiences, struggles, and the positive chang...
Self care
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Hi, welcome back to my podcast. I started this podcast in February, I think, and now it's June.
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I have a lot more time because it's summertime and a lot has happened since then. So I would
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like to share with you. So I've had a very stressful couple of months. I stopped being
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friends with a lot of people. I started being friends with other people that have made my life better.
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And I want to share with you growth and some stuff that you can do to help yourself.
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So the first thing that I want to share with you is what has happened and what I went through
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before I started helping myself. I was friends with some people that I shouldn't have been, that made my life just stressful, made me have trust issues, made me be self-conscious, and made me try to become a different person than I actually am.
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And I'm so grateful that I recognized and I have went through that because I guess that's the path that I was supposed to take.
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And now I have started new and I'm continuing to grow, which I'm really grateful for.
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So now I would like to talk to you about what has happened now. I became friends with someone or two people who have changed my life for the better.
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I became friends with my best friend, my now best friend. We were kind of friends in between the times that I was friends with the other person.
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And so we went through some of the same struggles and we can relate with each other what we went through and I'm really grateful for that because I can talk to someone who has experienced what I've experienced or something like it.
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So I'm really grateful for that.
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I'm also friends with another person who I'm really grateful to be friends with and I know I recognize that I have struggled with hurting people in the past, which is a really bad habit, but I'm trying to work on it.
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And they have really helped me recognize that I needed change for the better and I'm really grateful for that.
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So now I'd like to recognize how I'm trying to change. I've made some very bad decisions with these people, myself, just me.
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I've made mistakes and I'm trying to fix it every day. So I have been trying to do yoga, meditate. I don't know why I said it like that.
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I'm going to meditate. Oh my god, I said it again. Do some deep breathing, external. Some of the stuff has helped. And so yeah.
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I was in a really bad place when I was friends with the last people I was friends with.
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I, they, like, basically mentally abused me and it was really hard for me.
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But I'm trying to be better and I'm only 12 so I already struggle enough. I feel like I am trying to grow now and trying to be a better person when other people I know aren't trying to do what I'm trying to do.
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But I'm trying to grow from it. I think that this is an amazing way that I can grow.
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I've tried to take self, myself days like today. I'm doing like a detox and trying to just not be on social media and I've succeeded.
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I haven't been on social media a lot. I've only been, I've been trying to accept my consequences or partial consequences. I've been trying to get journal, which I think has really helped me.
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I put currently what are your three biggest goals. And I put self help, oh my gosh, self love, mental stability and improve my relationships.
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And above that, I put love yourself. I'm going to find myself one step at a time. I'm going to become a better person. I will have a clear, happy mindset and personality. I will be able to love myself and others.
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I think that those are great goals because I have struggled with a lot. And I think I reflect it on others and put it on others, which isn't a really healthy habit, but I'm trying to fix it.
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I think if I clean my room, then it's going to help me a lot. And I think if I just focus on myself, because I know that I can be selfish sometimes, but self care isn't selfish.
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Just remember that. I want to help others so much that I will damage my own self to be happy.
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But in that time, I'm also really selfish. Like I make lies up. And it's really not healthy for others and my relationships and everything I've done and built.
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And yeah, which is a really unhealthy habit that I do. And I'm just trying to be as honest as I possibly can. I'm trying to be a better person because I need to help myself because I know I need help.
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And when and if I do succeed and I'm happy again, then I think that's going to be the most amazing day that's ever going to happen for me because I don't think I've ever been actually happy, which is hard to accept and realize.
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But it's just so hard. And I'm not trying to put put put put pity on myself. But like I know the struggles I've been through and other people just unappreciating me is something.
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And I know that I need to cut some people off and cause I get called names that aren't very nice. And I know that those people need to stop and I realize that other people are some most people are really toxic.
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And I know that and I know those people are toxic because they like are like when I'm trying to help myself, they're like, okay, so you can't even talk to me.
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What am I not important? And I feel like they just don't understand what I'm going through. And my mom, she just is like, okay, so what if they're just having a bad day? Well, mom, so if they're having a bad day, they should reflect it onto me.
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And they should put all their struggles onto me. Like I'm not human. Like my feelings aren't important either. Like I can't be mad at them because they're doing that.
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Like I don't care if they're not having a good day. I don't care if they have struggles or anything because they're hurting me. They're, they've hurt me.
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I don't think my mom realizes it because it hurts me like a lot. And she just like is like, so what if they're just having a bad day?
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What if they're just, they have this or this or they're going through this. So mom, if they're going through that and I'm going through something, they should hurt me. That's cool.
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But what I hope this outcome will be for me and trying to succeed is I'll be happier. I'll be more grateful. I'll be nicer to others.
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I will try to be more trustworthy. I'll try to be more understanding. And yeah. I'm also going to camp for a week.
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So yeah. And it's going to be with my two, the two people that I hurt a lot because I wasn't honest. I was selfish and just very, I just did something very bad that I regret deeply.
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And I know that I hurt them and I'm going to give them their space because they asked for it. They requested it. So I'm going to do that and hope that I can fix this because I really do care about them.
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But at the same time, if I did care about them, why did I do that? I don't know. But I'm going to try to find out why I did it and why I keep hurting people because it's not a healthy habit. And I need to really focus on trying to fix that.
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So yeah. I hope you like this episode. I know it's not usual for me to do this type of stuff. But I'm going to try to do more stuff like this. And yeah. So bye.